LIFE LIVING IN BETWEEN

CHAPTER ONE (part 1)

QUESTIONING MY SANITY 

If yhu took a peek inside my mind what would yhu see? colors?, static? , vibratons ? Nothing? 

you kno what i hate most rite now is the saying my therapist  keep saying : ''What yhu see is wat yhu get.'' 

I dnt believe  that for a second ! what i do believe in or i feel rite now is that im on the wrong side of a DISNEY movie; Steadily singing  the question: ''when will my life begin?''

Ok alrite i understand reality will always be wat it is: harsh, but it doesnt stop me from being pissed off  ppl who think just becuz they quote some  ''historical know-it-all figure'' they  think they are rite. 

What if i start quoting all Disney movies, would that make me smarter and well recognized then? 

I'm tired of wondering why the girls in  disney  get all the luck? Like ,  you want  an adventure?, switch places with me! you want out of your fantastic fantasy world?  tada! wish granted ~ Zap!  if ever there was a hotline for disney females in ''reality wanted distress '' requesting a life change ,  i would be there on the spot answering their calls! i mean it might end up being not what they were looking for , but... if you never signed the dotted line on whether or not its long term or short term , well forgive me my deceit for i didnt bother too ask  whether or not yhu wanted to trade your lovely extravagant life for life of struggle and harshness. it just didnt make my schedule.

( If i sound depressing oh well! )

Any who ..!

im  not gonna lie maybe im just not cut out for the disney  life anyway ... you see im not very PG-13 im more fit for RATED-R , so that  would totally  shake up disney.   im a sweet person (phsyically) dnt get me wrong, but mentally  im too much for TV . im like sugar ~ you cant get enough of me , but oo much is just fatal.

 I could promise you one thing  that  if you really knew me well lets jus' say ''there never will be a  dull moment'' cliche? yea but true. The mind works in mysterious ways . inside of my mind i form thee most epic fantasies  of all time  that i think could probably give ''Zane'' a run for her money.   Speaking of Zane Ive always admired her. OMG Ive  starting reading her books around age 12, When  no one was paying me an attention i woud visit my aunts room and explore. little did i know theres was  a(n) excitingly wonderous adventure that lay in wait for me inside that book! the words , even though hard to understand without a dictionary, exploded off the page chapter after chapter i was hooked and couldnt get enough!   reading her books helped me boost my vocab and excel in reading , comprehension and spelling . After that i've  never left home without a book and dictionary in hand.  but even though i got brighter/ smarter  i also became too engrossed in all things sexual and before i  knew it reality became a non-factor in my life (not to mention the emotionally mental tragedies i had to endure...sexually and mentally). i wouldn't call myself damaged , but im pretty sure something  in me broke and reverted  into a non reality or fictitious, fantasy driven world .

My Life 101

Wasn't  always big on Perspective POV anyway,

to be continued

SEXMANIAC

P.S

do  yhu think i should change my name to SEXBRAINIAC? lol just wonderin, a always im always wondering... sometimes i ''wonder'' abt that. hmmm....