* I wrote this  wen I got angry today and off topic but who cares! ~ FreeWrite ~



Here's my poem yhu guys!!

~  I Made It Thru The Day  ~

I was up till this morning full of hate
so mad since yesterday
I haven't slept nor ate,
Thinking of all the truth and the lies
the real and the fake.

Paranoid of lies and ashamed of my stupidity
always played it off as simple naivety
ignoring the facts,
Deceit or Denial?
Denial or Deceit?

Trust being a non-factor (dnt kno who to believe!)and
2014 afresh with better actors
where everyone is smarter
as the world we live in grows darker and darker
I feel plagued or cursed,

As lost and sorrow tails me like 
a stalker 
Lusting to overwhelm me 
to clamp to me any second, evn tighter
Be strong! Be steady! You can do it! 
take back ur life, you're a fighter!

Trust in God if not urself 
don't stop ta think the words i usually tell myself :
do I have a choice? I have nothing left

do i trust in prayer?

As i try to fight it 
peel it off layer by layer
ambushed by pain left and right
my life collides before me.
I see no light so i go back to sleep 
which is where nightmares await

And where fright not to far away
but not tonite i'm tired so
I avoid all reality, black it out straight
sleep welcomes me in just a few hrs
my problems drift and then dissipate...
but only for a day

I realized I need help so I pray
hopeful God hears me

I know he has (sorta - kinda) cuz
I'm alive the next day thru all my fears

To struggle again 
so in my future fights I win

Mistrust, Deceit and Denial
might take me down sometimes 
but im not gon let it break me 
Nor let it block my sunshine

I will keep looking ahead 
for my future is mine 
not some tragic story!
If its one thing I've learned from my Pastor
is Never let the devil steal your glory! 

So all's there's left to do is forgive & forget
I'm a work in progress, still working on it
so throw all your sticks and stones but
only '' I '' can choose what misses and hits!

~FIN~
I hope yhu enjoyed it!  
Thanx for reading!

-S3XMAN1@C